I want to be Betty White when I grow up

I feel like I am up a bit too early for my liking this morning. Dawson didn't sleep well, it may have been what he was sleeping in.. or a sign of teething. I feel like an insomniac the last month. I usually nap with Dawson, but I may not take a nap so I will be tired by tonight. So, we don't have A.C in our home we have a swamp cooler. We got the A.C unit in our window last summer during my pregnancy. It helps so much at night. We haven't turned on the swamp cooler because it is just a pain in the butt. Our house gets pretty warm though, so we are looking into get A.C put into our home by the end of the week if all works out well. Tomorrow we are going to get an estimate. So, last night I was watching Betty White on "The Tonight Show". When I get old I want to be like Betty White I decided. She just doesn't care what people think. She has fun and lets loose, just makes the most out of life.

Backstreet Boys!!!

I also failed to mention that I went to the Backstreet Boys concert:). I went with my sister in law Rachel. We had so much fun, we went to Tucanos before we attended the concert. That was really yummy food, and I had great company. I am really glad she married Paul, we have gotten to hang out more lately and she is a great girl. Lucas likes to call The Backstreet Boys "Porn for women". I say "Well at least I am not into Twilight". I gotta like something right? I just have always liked them they have songs that are fun to sing and dance to. Also when I had went to their concerts in the past I have had great memories. The first time I went they sold out their first so they put on a second. This was the "Millennium" tour. Me and my mom spur of the moment went to get tickets. We had to go back that Saturday in the wee hours of the morning. It was the most horrible process to get concert tickets. Well I got to go with her and my sister. We had the worst tickets but we had such a great time. It was nice to see my mom let loose and to also have fun with my awesome sister. The second time I went it was right after my sister got back from her mission from Nauvoo. This was "The Black and Blue" tour, and I will always remember that time. She had just gotten back from Nauvoo, and I had been missing her terribly and it was great to spend time with her again. I just have had some great memories when I have attended concerts.

Wow.. It's been a while.

Yes, it's been a loooonnnggg time since I have updated this. Mostly because I have no idea what I am doing on here yet. Dawson is 7 months old now and he is just the best little baby anyone could ask for. He laughs so easily, and is a happy boy. Having him was a spiritual experience, you can really feel it. Lucas had mentioned feeling this way as well. We like to call Dawson "Captain Grunts" because he likes to grunt all the time. Sometimes when he is frustrated or when he just likes to get attention. People mostly say he looks like me or he is a good combination of both Lucas and I. He of course has my eyes, they are a dominant trait in my family. Having a little boy is awesome, I know girls always want a girl... but I didn't. I wanted a boy first, I am the first one my family to have a boy first. I would love to have a little girl but I just wanted a boy. I would have loved whatever I was given but I just had a feeling I had a little boy waiting first. Lucas says I am a "Boys mom" meaning I am good at taking care of boys. I have said "You don't think I will be good at raising a girl, I was an Instructor at a Beauty College I think I can handle it" haha. He then will say "Oh I don't really mean it like that" ;). Lucas likes to tease me he is such the classic boy that probably teased a girl in elementary if he had a crush on her. He thinks it's funny when I get mad at him, he will add fuel to the fire. He isn't like that all the time, he is a really sweet husband that would do anything for me and Dawson. He is a very thoughtful man and we have had a lot of good times together. I can't believe we are fastly approaching our 3rd Anniversary of being married. We are still trying to think of what to do for it. We usually go out of town, but we have Dawson now so that changes things a bit. I don't believe in leaving a baby over night with someone until they are at least a year old. It's fine if someone thinks different but that is what I think. So, after having a baby I took a look at my body and thought oh my bleep you look like crap ha ha. Well, I felt like crap I got my Gallbladder out almost 2 months ago. I was living in pain for 5 months. Now, I have lost over 45 lbs and still am working on losing more. I have my ups and downs with it but I weigh almost 20lbs less than when I got pregnant with Dawson. Marriage really makes you pack on the lbs if you aren't careful. I will get to my goal weight eventually, at least the goal is in sight! I just have the extra skin from the pregnancy takes a long time for that to go back. I have heard you should give yourself a year in the belly region. Did you know it takes 3 years for your body to fully be healed from giving birth crazy huh!? So onto the next topic.. I really wish our house would sale but the stupid housing market is not on the mend like people have said. I blame it on Obama the idiot that he is You wanted change america so here it is! He just makes things worse. People have the argument of Bush and all but I didn't really like him all that much either. I think he did do some things well but some things he messed up on. As for as Obama he has just messed up on everything. I honestly wish the house would sell, it's such a pain in my butt! So now we are re evaluating what we should do. I guess it's not time for us to move yet, I will keep praying for it like I do every single night. I am just glad Lucas has a great job with great benefits. We are blessed that he makes enough that I can stay at home and even have a house. I have to remember that and keep myself in check. Lucas has traveled quiet a bit lately for his job. He is in charge of the "Mormon Messages for Youth" on lds.org. He loves his job and works really hard! He just returned from Prague this last Thursday. He brought home yummy chocolate that tastes way better the U.S chocolate. I gained 2 lbs from eating it and now I am mad at myself for it ha ha. I will start out stronger tomorrow Monday is a new day and I can have a better attitude! The Fourth Of July is this weekend yay! My favorite holiday! I love it so much, can't wait for the Kaysville parade. I love that parade it's pretty much the best parade ever! Well, here is an update Lucas will be proud of me. He is asleep still recovering from Jet lag, hope that ends soon because I want my fun husband back!

Dawson's First Day

This is a Little Highlight video we made for Dawson,
Enjoy

Dawson's First Day from Lucas James McGraw on Vimeo.

Waiting around...

I am watching pointless t.v. right now. Lucas is working on a project for work and he doesn't get home till anywhere from 11 to 1 am. So, I haven't been able to really see a whole lot of him the last month. These last two weeks have been the worst though. I was feeling really stressed from work and all they ask me to do. I finally got some guts and told them that I may be leaving sooner than later if they keep having me do more tasks. I mean I am pregnant right? I am in my third trimester and am feeling pretty tired. I of course have been swelling up a bit but it's all good. I just laugh though when I tell people how tired I am and how I hurt all over when I get home. Then they want me to cut their hair after work? Uh hello I stand on my feet at work and it's a full time job and then I would have to come stand on my feet some more and do your hair? Doesn't make sense to me! Technically your not supposed to stand on your feet for more than 3 or 4 hours a day when you are pregnant. You have more of a risk to have a pre term labor. I just hate having to tell people no when they ask me to do stuff. I have to just say I am sorry I really can't please understand. I get bugged they wouldn't have already thought of what I have told them in the first place. I mean I haven't even gotten my haircut in over a year from a professional. I have been cutting it myself, so I don't feel sorry for you. Sorry if that seems mean but geez! I am having a better day today I went into work a couple hours later so I could eat some breakfast with lucas since I don't get to see a whole lot of him lately. It was really nice and then work is going to cut me some slack. My brother in law got a job and I am so happy for him and my sis. It's been a long road for them and all of that schooling finally paid off! Lucas and I got a new dwarf hamster her name is cosette. Our last hamster died last weekend his name was wee wong. I still feel sad he died. I am very emotional the last couple of weeks I can cry so easily it's ridiculous. I think I just feel stressed out, but hopefully next week will be better. Lucas will be done with the project this weekend so I am very happy. I miss him so much!

Random Thoughts

Right now Im so full from eating at Applebee's. Im sure Lucas will be jealous because I had the shrimp parmesan sirloin. We tend to always get that when we go to Applebee's. Lucas is filming something in Idaho for work, he will be gone until tomorrow night. I hate when he has to be gone over night somewhere without me. I have a really hard time sleeping by myself. Im waiting for my sister Maryanne and fam to come play Guitar Hero World Tour. I fell asleep for a little while and now I feel all groggy. I was happy because this morning my brother-in-law and his wife came and help me pick up fruit and vegies at the park from bountiful baskets. It's a co op group where you can get the fruits and vegetables like at whole sale a farmers market type thing. I can't lift it all by myself so luckily they came and helped me this morning. I was freaking out about it yesterday and was bawling like all day because I was stressing over it. Thats what happens when your pregnant... haha. Lucas felt bad so he called everyone to try and find someone to help me since he was going to be gone. He was nice and even gave me a back rub to help me feel better. Well I gotta go they are here!