It's that time again, that time where I realize I hardly ever blog. I really enjoy reading blogs from family and friends. Well, I should just say friends. I don't see much blogging from family anymore. So, anyway here I am!
Lucy is doing pretty well considering where she has been in the past. Her seizures have been under control for 5 months or so. Hope that continues! I know eventually we will have to change some of her meds, since phenobarbital shouldn't be used for too long. I guess it can cause more development delays. Lucy doesn't need anymore of that. She is pretty delayed as it is. I know she won't ever be like kids her own age. She is a year and a half now, which is completely crazy to me. I have been changing out some clothes the past couple of days. I have an awesome stock of clothes curtosy of my sister Maryanne. My other sister Amy stocks me up on clothes for Dawson. I have had other family members offer lately, but I have so many clothes I am set! And I am so thankful for that, I fully take advantage of all the clothes I have been given to use. They all are so nice, it's helped a lot not to have to worry about having enough money for clothing.
Now that Lucy is a year and a half I see people pregnant again that were pregnant right along with me when I was been pregnant in the past. I honestly can tell you all, don't expect an announcement for anymore children coming for a very very very very very long time on my end. I would have extreme guilt if I had another child right now. I had enough guilt to last a life time with Dawson. I felt so bad I wasn't there for him as much as I could have been when everything happened with Lucy. Even if everything was fine and dandy I wouldn't be having anymore kids for a while. I want to make sure I can spend time with all my kids the best way I can. I have a guilt complex, other people carrry on popping out kids. That is fine, your life not mine. I personally couldn't handle it, just the way I am. I know my limits, and I have the guilt complex added on to it. In the future when we have more kids, it will be great. But, right now I enjoy being a mommy to my 2 kids. Last night, Dawson told me to give him kisses. He says this to me every time I check up on him at night and he is still awake. He pointed his "black eye" in my direction to kiss (black eye from swing set). So, I kissed his eye and he tells me it's much better now and he thanked me. I love that little guy so much, whenever he says sweet things I automatically tear up. He is a sweet boy that I love very much, that has been my rock on days where I felt like I would fall apart.
About a month ago, Lucy tried some pedia sure for the first time. Lucy became extremely sick from it, her oxygen levels were around 80. I was happy to have my pulse oximeter on hand and a tank of oxygen. I found some meds to help, and asked my brother Brenden to come over to help Lucas give Lucy a blessing. I thought we were going to have to call 911 for a minute there, it was pretty scary. She immediately started to get better once she was given a blessing. I am very grateful that she turned around and had oxygen in hand. I'm honestly so use to oxgyen levels and what a tank can be set at, so if you ever have any questions ask me. It doesn't scare me, I know what to do and how to handle it.
Lucy will be getting a stroller this summer! I am way happy about that, that means we are going to get a mini van. I have been carless for 2 and a half years. Yep, stuck at home unless I have rides from my parents. So, all you people complaining about not driving in the winter, guess what 2 and a half years people.... Yep, I'm crazy.. So, this will help mine and Lucy's sanity and I'm sure Dawson too :). She is so small, that shriners will need to customize a stroller her size. They think it will help her trunk support and mobility if she is strapped together in a more upright position. She obviously wants to look around, so lets help her out.
Well, I'm going to keep enjoying my week of no appointments. And then General Conference this weekend, I am very much looking forward to that. May you all have a blessed week! Thanks for reading!
Lucy is doing pretty well considering where she has been in the past. Her seizures have been under control for 5 months or so. Hope that continues! I know eventually we will have to change some of her meds, since phenobarbital shouldn't be used for too long. I guess it can cause more development delays. Lucy doesn't need anymore of that. She is pretty delayed as it is. I know she won't ever be like kids her own age. She is a year and a half now, which is completely crazy to me. I have been changing out some clothes the past couple of days. I have an awesome stock of clothes curtosy of my sister Maryanne. My other sister Amy stocks me up on clothes for Dawson. I have had other family members offer lately, but I have so many clothes I am set! And I am so thankful for that, I fully take advantage of all the clothes I have been given to use. They all are so nice, it's helped a lot not to have to worry about having enough money for clothing.
Now that Lucy is a year and a half I see people pregnant again that were pregnant right along with me when I was been pregnant in the past. I honestly can tell you all, don't expect an announcement for anymore children coming for a very very very very very long time on my end. I would have extreme guilt if I had another child right now. I had enough guilt to last a life time with Dawson. I felt so bad I wasn't there for him as much as I could have been when everything happened with Lucy. Even if everything was fine and dandy I wouldn't be having anymore kids for a while. I want to make sure I can spend time with all my kids the best way I can. I have a guilt complex, other people carrry on popping out kids. That is fine, your life not mine. I personally couldn't handle it, just the way I am. I know my limits, and I have the guilt complex added on to it. In the future when we have more kids, it will be great. But, right now I enjoy being a mommy to my 2 kids. Last night, Dawson told me to give him kisses. He says this to me every time I check up on him at night and he is still awake. He pointed his "black eye" in my direction to kiss (black eye from swing set). So, I kissed his eye and he tells me it's much better now and he thanked me. I love that little guy so much, whenever he says sweet things I automatically tear up. He is a sweet boy that I love very much, that has been my rock on days where I felt like I would fall apart.
About a month ago, Lucy tried some pedia sure for the first time. Lucy became extremely sick from it, her oxygen levels were around 80. I was happy to have my pulse oximeter on hand and a tank of oxygen. I found some meds to help, and asked my brother Brenden to come over to help Lucas give Lucy a blessing. I thought we were going to have to call 911 for a minute there, it was pretty scary. She immediately started to get better once she was given a blessing. I am very grateful that she turned around and had oxygen in hand. I'm honestly so use to oxgyen levels and what a tank can be set at, so if you ever have any questions ask me. It doesn't scare me, I know what to do and how to handle it.
Lucy will be getting a stroller this summer! I am way happy about that, that means we are going to get a mini van. I have been carless for 2 and a half years. Yep, stuck at home unless I have rides from my parents. So, all you people complaining about not driving in the winter, guess what 2 and a half years people.... Yep, I'm crazy.. So, this will help mine and Lucy's sanity and I'm sure Dawson too :). She is so small, that shriners will need to customize a stroller her size. They think it will help her trunk support and mobility if she is strapped together in a more upright position. She obviously wants to look around, so lets help her out.
Well, I'm going to keep enjoying my week of no appointments. And then General Conference this weekend, I am very much looking forward to that. May you all have a blessed week! Thanks for reading!
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